44 going on being a lady...

So some of you have been following me the past week on this little journey, this journey has been a long time coming. Dresses, nails , pedicures, it all sounds so normal to most girls. Well as most of you know....I am not most girls. Not that I am not a girl, cause I am. I just never got into all the girly things, they seemed so much a waste of time. So self centered. Now 44 years later, I finally have learned...it is ok to care about yourself..it is ok to want to be pretty.

It wasn't easy, I mean how do you do things a certain way for so many years and then just change...just like that! Well you really don't, you think about it for years, you want it for months, and then you struggle with yourself for days.

Everyone sees the leap you take, but only a few know the journey that has gotten you here.
I know that in the whole scheme of things, this is not a big deal to many. I mean nails, dressing up it is a daily routine for so many. What is the BIG deal???

Let's just say, I am no longer a child, I am an adult. I no longer need to do things with a child's mind. I get to be the adult, I get to make my own choices. I don't have to be anyone or anything that I don't want to be, I get to be who I want to be. The emotions that come with that statement are more freeing then most will ever know.

I also want to thank womyn that have come into my life. The ladies that have shown me love and compassion. You all know who you are, or at least I hope I have told you more then once what you mean to me. You have accepted me for who I am, and are also there now watching me grow and accepting this also. I owe so much to all of you, you are a big reason that I am still here seeing what this wonderful life has yet to bring.

So in about a month I will be 45 years old. A year I thought I would never see. Here I am still growing, learning, and loving. Life is truly an amazing adventure...and with every twist and turn, it only gets more amazing. So just when you think that maybe you don't want to see what else life has to throw at you.....remember this little story of a girl that is glad she has the chance to still become a lady.