And a good looking John Deere T shirt! Love this little cutie! Hey Tater!!
I have had an exhausting couple of days.
Lots of drama...which I don't do well. It isn't my drama but others drama and they have this vacuum effect and they keep trying to suck ya in. I am holding on to the bar as tight as I can , because I just refuse to let myself fall into that vat. It is hard, especially when you just keep getting lied to and about.
I need to concentrate on the good things, the wonderful life I have. The Good person I am, and the people that have my back. Friends, friends that I know support me....friends that are there for me. I am so lucky to surround myself with those people. Do you have friends like that? A friend like that? One that puts you first, that you know in a battle would fight with you and then ask questions? Trust you and your decisions enough to believe you?
I can sit here now and know that if it was 20 years ago, I would throw my hands up in the air and pack my bags and drive away. I have done this. I would sleep in my car and move on. I have done this.
NOW...present day....I have something that keeps me grounded. Keeps me wanting to be a better person. My Son, he is the reason I will sit here and write, instead of pack. He is the reason I will work through this and keep on going. He is the reason I will rise above everything that is thrown at me, smile and go on. Thank God for him. He makes me a better person. Being his Mom is the best thing I could ever have become. All the other nonsense is just that.
I hope to snap out of this soon, I have to just work at it at my own pace. I am not looking for anything by posting the ugly here, this is how I work thru things, these too are random thoughts. I force no one to read this , I write here with all my own freedoms.
Today will be an important day to reflect on. It will show me later when I return to read this, that I made it thru a low point , I didn't sink or run away. I stood here and faced things, I became stronger for it. I will put on some Styrofoam and my favorite T-shirt and smile!!
16 hours ago